Dreams: Once closer step

Hey guys, so it's been about a month since I gave you an update. I'm listening to Lorde " A World Alone" and I feel so sad and happy all the same time. I want to cry but then I want to laugh. I am feeling a mix of things. So, I'm getting my child performer permit which will allow me to act. I am very excited. I also wrote my resume. Now, I just need a headshot. My mom is like, " Why don't you act at 18?" and I'm like " NO! I'm doing it now." Because you know why? For the last 3 years of me being in this house, I need to start the things that make me happy. For the last 3 years of my life being in my mom's house I want to start my career so that it will be easier to slip into the acting industry. My family is cruel and mean and they aren't honest. My mom is fake and I don't look up to her. She will move a mountain for people WHO won't jump a puddle for her. Her brother is a selfish piece of shit. I dislike him I will never respect him nor will i ever help him. He is experiencing karma right now. He has been in this country for 8 months and does not have a job, but see my aunt has been here for 5 MONTHS and is closer to getting a job. I am making sure to start my acting career because I don't want to end up like my mom. My mom who gives everything for people who don't deserve it. I am going to do whatever I can I am going to work my ASS off to become a popular actress to do what I have wanted to do. TO DO what is in my destiny to be. So God Please help me because I am not going to live my live unhappy, depressed, and unfulfilled. God give me the strength so that I can become what is destined of me and to never live in the shadow pf unhappiness. I want to be an actress and I will do it in a respectable manner. I will never do porn nor will I do a movie where people can see my completely naked body. Let me Prove the doubters and non believers wrong.