My Heart is Hurting

So my mom and I have been having big issues lately and she just is killing my feelings. I mean I'm not going to say I'm the perfect daughter, which is a complete lie. My philosphy is talking out a problem so we reach an agreement so we can move on. My mom is the opposite. She lets things slide and then complains about it. For example, yesterday I wore my rain boots because I thought it was going to rain. I wore my rain boots home and I soon find out I got a blister. This morning I go to my mom and ask her what I should do about my blister and she said, " I don't care. Deal with it yourself." My mom has been depressed ever since my sister said she would not care if my Mom died. Ever since then, my mom is like, " You're going to turn up like your sister." And that really hurts my feelings because I am not her. My mom keeps pushing me away, then complains that I don't help. My mom said if she could do it again, she would never have children. She said I'm a mistake. There is so much that she tells me and it just hurts so much. It doesn't even feel like a slap to the face. It feels like a scar that no one sees, except for the bearer. So everyday only the bearer sees it. I don't hate my mom. I never will. But I just have no feelings. No feelings of love or hate. Just neutral. Nothing. Even when I become an actress, I will always help her. Anything she needs, I will do it for her. Maybe we are just not fit to live with eachother, maybe our relationship will get better as I get older and not live with her. I just hope it is fixed. In my broken heart, I pray we will love each other again. I usually don't cry, but this has definitely made me cry and typing this doesn't even make me feel better.