My insecurity

Everyone has insecurities and this insecurity is something that runs deep in me. If I learn something and I'm failing at it... I will bust my ass to become good at it. For example, my friend and i were starting to learn crocheting and I wasn't doing a good job in it. I barely had a scarf and I saw some people with many rows. This made me go beast mode and make sure I was improving in the scarf. I don't like being looked at as the weak one. I know I can't be good at EVERYTHING. But for me, once I touch something or become interested in something, I have to make sure I don't stop at anything till i become good at it. No exceptions.

Today

I am so FUCKING PISSED. I'm ranting right now because I JUST DONT CARE. SOME FAMILY IS FAKE AS HELL AND IM DONE WITH THIS SHIT. IM DONE WITH IT ALL. So, today, it is like 23 degrees outside and wind speed is 21 MPH. And it's freezing outside and my mom drove to work and can not find her car keys. She is forced to walk home. My aunt calls my uncle and subtly asks if he can pick her up. This bum ass person said, " Alright. Well I took a shower so I'm not leaving." MY BOY YOU HAVE A NEW CAR THAT MY MOM GAVE YOU. YOU CANT GET SOME CLOTHES AND PICK HER UP YOU SELFISH PIECE OF SHIT. I got you. The greatest revenge is success so when you see me on blockbusters, at the oscars winning an award, and others. DONT SAY SHIT TO ME!