My Aspirations

I know I keep writing a lot about this topic and I know it may annoy you. Sorry. Oh Well. Anyways, I am supposed to be doing acting classes with my grandma in February and I'm so excited! Hopefully, I'll be able to do at least 1 audition before I turn 15. If that doesn't happen, that's okay. I'll do a whole lot of auditions when I turn 15. I look at astrology a lot and my Midheaven is in Leo which means I crave attention. To be in the public spotlight. Which is true. I do. I want to be known for my own talent. i mean I hope I can produce a good performance. I think I kind of like the camera and I hope I am able to become best friends with the camera, the director, everyone who makes the movie possible. Because it would be that cool. I know I will be nervous to do the auditions. I would freak out hearing people saying, " I've been doing this since I was in my diapers. I got this." I will especially be nervous if they are beauties. But I think I just need support. I don't think I'll be able to perform well unless someone who means something to me comes. It doesn't have to be 10 people, but just 1 person who believes in me. I think it will go well and I know it's not good to be depending on people. I don't much honestly. But I need a rock. My family is my broken rock, but if I have someone who believes in me then that is ok. I hope I can just do what I love. I think it would be weird seeing myself on a magazine. Cool but strange. But one thing though I would HATE and even LOATHE being known for what Kim is known. But what I do admire from her is she took advantage of the situation and turned the tables around and made herself an icon. Whether you hate her or love her, you gotta admire her intelligence.